Leaving in a New' dimension

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Arggghhhhh..i bn captivatin by his new looks. I must b insane to think dat hor? Damnn.. Nvm..tyme wil heals BUT i really2 hope NOW!

Juz ytd my mum was admitted to hospital, lil bro of mine actin lyke a baby. FCUK! All things wna go his ways! Dis is de reason wen my mum&&dad too concern abt dat boy til nw he dont evn wna learn wats hard in lyfe w/o anitin. SPOIL-BRAT!! *GRIN*

Pluss nowadaez i feel lyke wna giv up everytin. Its kinda hard to handle all things by urself wen u urself was abt to step in as a LADY. Problem here there.. Tryin to solve in any way but it seems useless. Pray hard, think hard, solve soon. Dat wat i gt in mind.

Missin my frens lots!! IMY PPL! *hug*

Monday, March 22, 2010

Feel sickk to not knw where wil it b next! Tryin to move on but why all of de sudden he make me more&&more stressful?! WHY? Juz realised dat he actuali notice me frm afar while me bein a kido playin hide&seek! Haiss.. Why must he reappear ard me? Whenever i look outside, 'yeahh.. there he is walkin back to his place'. Really really wish to watch de full view of him, den again, i must remind myself to move onn w/o him. Seriously watchin him frm back view really hurt me alot. Altho nw i treat him as fren, we didt contact each othr animore, EVER! So wats de prom nw hah??

Goddamn it.. I miss de tyme wen he came&&look fur me. Dat was de part i cant forget most. Cn i rewind back to 25/01/10?? Wish i culd tld him hw much i regret of everytin dat happen to me. Its nt lyke i wan it to happen. Sooooo sory!!:'( But stil in every rlationship there shuld b trust among us. Neither of us lyke to b control so pls UNDERSTAND me!! Dats all im askin for, not too much isnt it?!

I miss my khai so much. Wonder hw he is nw? Miss my bestfren, Lyn&&Zul. Wonder hw they are? Geeeeeezzz..wat am i doin actuali by stop contactin them?! Guys guyss..plss deh, dont hate me! I still nid u ppl. IMY!! *sobb*

IMY PPL!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Im sick sick sick.. Luckily todae Kak Yati cancel our shoppin. Thk God! Pluss im so so so sorryyyy i hv to cancel d match. I think i'll juz watch on Tv. Sory bro! U cn giv out my tix to anyone!

TTYS!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Ohhh dear..its officially OFF! Im greatful to him fur fillin up my empty ♥♥ fur de last 2mth. Err..to b exact it shuld be 1mth plus but WTH he actuali surprise me on d exact date. Cn u imagine aftr gettin myself drunk on 24 Jan, he actuali missed call me @ 1am, 6 times. Ohh god, does he knw dat we're over!?! Haisss.. Wont elaborate more but fur sure is; its 100% OVER! Tryin hard nt to walk pass him or bump into him.

Last few daez i received an email frm BFF. Woot! Finally! Missing her lots.. All i hv in dis country is my Family, Zul, Khai && nt to 4get my Supergirl! Gona mit them on 27 Feb. Yeahh..cant wait fur dat. Well..lyfe hv to go on rite? Im hapee wif it. I still hv my 'darlings' all ard me. LOL! Ohyaa to ZUL; hw's d portfolio doin? Hope i wont make a blunt out of myself hor. Pluss wen do i get my pay?haha.. Notin in dis world is free! Take note! Anw thks fur d pic. Room-rated! LOL!

sometyme u hv to go tru de pain to express de joy

Monday, January 11, 2010

Totally de word BORED concur me. Suppose to headed dwn to Kaplan open hse but fate seems nt on my side lo. Last min call, i nid to tutor someone dwn. Haisss..so yeahh nw tutorin @ de same tyme bloggin. LOL! "Sory small man, b gd && do ur hmwerk quietly ok! Jiejie gt some job to do". ROFL! Hopefully he dont tell Mummy abt it. Todae wasnt my luck, my hp gona die soon so no MP3 lata on -_-" Pluss shockin news! I bump into Hafis @ Cwp && he werkin! Gracious lord, was it coincident or wat? CWP?? LOL! I feel lyke im somekind bein surrounded by guys: who i wna AVOID, who i ONCE love && who i MISS = in one DAMN buildin whr me, he, his, him werk! WTHecK! [RUNNIN AWAY]

Ytd was a hapee moment fur me i guess. Fur once we did agree on sometin. "YES! U're superrb/extremelyy bz". LOL! I guess i shall get used to it lo. [SIGH]

Ohyaa also ytd i was queuing up to order food, den out of nowhere, Uncle bside his wife took a pic of me. WTF! I was stunned aftr i hear a 'click' sound plus wen i turn he quickly put his hp away. Eeewww..crazy-dirty-maniac Uncle!! && Guyss IDT he's a "supermodel spy" lyke u ppl sae. I think he's more to dirty sex killer gt lo. Eeewww..im so digusted by dat old man! Yuccckkk!! Anw i wil b bz dis few daez so if u cnt get tru me pls try callin @ nite instead. Toodless..

swore upon dat uncle kna bad luck! [EVIL LAUGH]

Friday, January 8, 2010

Bn 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 daez && almost lost count wen was de last tyme we kip in contact. Haiss.. Fers thing fers im sick of his werking shedule! Sick of his tyme! Sick of seein him so bz lyke there's no tml! pfft! SERIOUSLY I AM MAD!! [PISSED OFF]

Wna apologise to Khai && Zul fur my rudeness, selfishness, arrogant && alot more. Sory if things turn up to b ugly den i expected. Seriously i dont knw wat was i thinkin/talkin! Ohh well im totally dead ~~drunk~~! Dont expect me to speak nicely wen me myself hv ALOT of trouble troubling me. Paiseyy-paiseyy.. [RUNNIN AWAY]

Fur a dae i get a gd quest frm someone i dont even knw who. She sae dis; "why are u buzzin into Khai lyfe wen u alreadi hv a lyfe of ur own?" Gd quest indeed, BITCH! Fers..Khai is my Bro, no more or less i treat him equal. Sec..Yes, i hv my own lyfe(which IDK hw u knw!) but who re u to separate us rite?! Even his fiancee didt sae a word! WTF! Third..I dont even knw u && why de heck u bother askin me? Lastly..u're juz some fan of his! So move on dear, he's engaged! ~FULLSTOP! Lyke HELLO..atleast i hv my rights ok! [WINKs]

Yeah yeahh yeahhh..everyone seems to see i hv everytin i wan but do they knw there's a saein; 'altho u hv everytin, deep dwn u're nt hapee actuali.' Dats hw i feel! I dont hv everytin lyke wat some sae. To b exact, i feel lonely actuali. Havin a BF feels so useless. Hell yeah im damn jealous whoever hv a smooth rlationship. (PS: trust me i wont steal any of ur BF! LOL!) Geeeezzz.. Treasure ur rlationship dont make stupid dcision or thought ok. [MUACCKss]

damn sad wif his shedule:(